Sometimes I want to reach down into my insides and rip my heart out. Figuratively of course. I want to study and investigate what makes me tick. Jeremiah the ancient Hebrew prophet said “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” There are so many facets of me and I want to express them and live them out. The good ones of course.
And that’s why writing this blog has become hard. The older I get the more I realize that I’m not just one thing. Part of my issue is people want to pin you down and place you in a camp but seriously I don’t agree totally with most camps. I seem to always find out something wrong with it. Not to say that I’m better or my way is the right way but I just can never hop fully on board with a group whether it’s African Americans, Christians, New Calvinists, Missional Church etc. So because of my diverse interests, relationships, and makeup it’s been hard to find my voice with this blog. I struggle with finding my audience. The people I’m supposed to speak to because of my own uniqueness. So there’s the dilemma.
And I think it can be solved. See what I’ve been trying to do is fit my whole life into a blog. Doesn’t work. The content has to fit the medium and my life-anyone’s life-is just to big and awesome and colorful to fit inside a tiny blog. What does that mean for me? I’m going to stick with what I originally began writing about: diversity, church, and culture. This is my pocket, my groove, and where the Lord has used me to touch people’s lives and open up their understanding.
So with that being said here are some upcoming new offerings I’m adding to the blog:
- Book Reviews
- Flash Fiction
- Poetry
- And of course more posts related to diersity, church, and culture and the intersection between all of these topics.
So I’ve found my voice and I will keep using it. Not for my own fame or to make it on lists like 101 culturally diverse Christian voices. No. It’s to serve the church, the world, and ultimately God. And if I can do that then I will always speak from my authentic voice: rooted in blackness, following Jesus, embracing the world.
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